I have Social Anxiety and OCD.

It's one thing to be completely aware of the demons lurking inside of you, but another to give up the fight and let them take control.

(Though sometimes I will admit that I sort of feel like that scene from Girl, Interrupted where Daisy tells Lisa that she's jealous just because she (Daisy) has recovered, and Lisa says "you changed the scenery but not the situation" or whatever the line is.)

I was diagnosed with GAD a few years back, but lately I've been struggling more with OCD symptoms than anxiety. Sometimes I'm also having short panic attacks, and some days I'm feeling low and want to be left alone while other days I feel like I'm on top of the world, but I think I'd qualify for neither panic disorder nor clinical depression.

Does anyone else go into hermit mode when things get rough? I do it all the time - can't get out of bed, avoid everyone's calls, just wanting to be alone in general.

i'm pretty sure that's called depression :)

lol, true. I guess I wonder if I take it to extremes sometimes

Dysthymia, body dysmorphia, and social anxiety. First two are mild but extremely annoying; latter gets in the way quite of lot things.

I often do that. Now I'm getting used to a cray life so don't really do it as much

I seem to turn into a really crappy person when I'm down and I instantly feel guilty when my spirits are slightly lifted because I've not been aware that I've been acting like such a dickhead. I've told my mum how I feel and I also told my bf in an emotional outburst but mainly I don't think people believe me. I generally think they are under the impression I use it as an excuse when things don't go so swimmingly because that's when I can't control how I feel and have outbursts. I've pretty much been acting quite wild when I go off on one, recently I had a bit of an argument with my brother and I pretty much went off on a rampage and punched a huge dent in his BMW, oops.

I just feel at times that my head is pretty ****ed up and why can't everything be the way it was a few years ago. I've developed some pretty crazy anger problems as well, I dunno if that's related to depression/anxiety or not but my family have suggested anger management to me a number of times.

I guess technically I'm a sociopath, or used to be back when I was in therapy at least a decade ago. My therapist told my dad at age 12 I had the whole family wrapped around my finger haha. I kinda like it though, because I find over emotional people incredibly annoying and useless in times of critical thinking. I'd hate to be one of them.

I probably have seasonal depression too like everyone else in the world. And too much pot as a kid has definitely made me paranoid, like sometimes I think my boyfriend secretly hates me because he's a sexist or something and is just biding his time to break my heart as badly as possible. Also used to talk with a non-existent being via metaphor and hidden messages, but then I joined the great temple of science and that faded.

I know my flaws, and I usually know when I'm reaching crazy. Medication can blow me.

I'm also pleased with the title of this thread including the phrase character flaws, because frankly, I believe in embracing a personality. Again... medication can blow me. But I'm not schizophrenic.

You kidding? I've been doing **** all the last four years but playing video games at my mother's house. No job, no life, no friends but the one. And aside from a vague desire to be self-sufficient I don't even really care all that much about it. The world doesn't much care for me and the feeling is mutual. Not in a suicidal way, I just fart in the world's general direction.

There is nothing better than feeling free. Get out and do something, put some fresh air in the old lungs. Nobody says you have to socialise but being outdoors is so good for you. I enjoy being outside alone most because I find most people I know don't appreciate it as much as me. I just like to bask in the beauty of Scotland.

I'm not confined to the house. I get out a fair amount, I just don't really enter into the world of people when I do so. It's more an internal hermitage than a physical one.

Eh, I have really bad social anxiety. To the point of normally when I'm in a crowd I have at least a slight panic attack. Well, maybe those two aren't directly connected, Idk. I have tons of anxiety period. Not sure its a disorder or whatever.

I probably have bipolar disorder though the diagnosis not ready yet. If not I have only depression that comes ans goes. I have dyslexia, social anxiety and I take pills because of it, I am colour blind when it comes to green and red. I get irritated easily when I'm feeling hyperactive and out of control.

and I'm lazy.

Christmas must be pretty boring for you.

I'm blue/purple and red/green colorblind bro and sometimes lazy. Welcome to the club brah

I think there's a part of myself that's afraid of being a normal, happy and functional human being. So whenever I start moving in a positive direction I get this overwhelming urge to just **** things up for myself. I blew off an interview today to get blazed and watch TV. Wtf, self?

its a self fulfilling prophecy i have experienced


it comes from ppl over the yrs maybe tellin u that you will not succeed or are a loser or whatever other negative things. and it also comes from your own belief somewhere inside u that u dont deserve the success ----- that the prospects of success is unwarranted. that u have not lived a life worthy of glory.


when in reality u must find ur fuel. convert negativity to positivty for fuel for the journey towards your own personal glory..... at times u must have the mantlaity of a one man army, one man vs the world and set out to conquer it. its all about the process and striving. you can do it but everyday you wait to start is a day youve wasted

In Japan they call people like you hikikomori.

:clap:

exactly.

my parents (especially my mother and my grandparents on her side) had a terrible habit of pulling this nonsense on me and once I started tuning it out I basically said "fuck you, I'm going to do amazing, incredible, awesome things with myself because I'm perfectly capable and worthy. fuck you."

I have largely cut them out of my life (mostly my mother and grandparents - I keep in touch as much as possible with my father and sister) and it's amazing what you can accomplish (and how much better you can actually feel about yourself) once you cut out people who make you feel like you're worthless.

you must cut the negativity from ur life and along the way start surroundin yourself with positive ppl. personally i cut a whole side of my family out lol. point blank they are losers and manipulators and excuse makers. i have a very small family now but i wouldnt be able to strive if the others were there to hold me back. some ppl want the failures of others cause they do not succeed themselves. ive cut out a lot of friends over the yrs too cause i understand the power of hard work and determination and i cant be tempted to stray from the path ive created. if i would then i would be cheatin myself

I have no flaws. :D

Character flaws: probably any number of cognitive biases at any given time:

List of cognitive biases - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Disorders: when I took abnormal psych, I diagnosed myself with all kinds of disorders. I definitely have some social awkwardness and over-think things and struggle with fundamental concepts by overcomplicating them. There's a lot of random noise in my head, I guess and a lot of uncertainty about the right way to do things. But none of this appears to interfere with my personal life or work; I have made it through a BS and an MS while raising a family (two daughters). Nearly halfway through my PhD now.

I always thought they were referred to as "losers".

have you read a Tale for the Time Being?

I have been induced into a misanthropic state because of my philanthropy.

Pro-having enough friends.
Anti-social media.

I'd probably rather observe you than get to know you.

^^^

You made me think of this poem:

I like people quite well
at a little distance.
I like to see them passing and passing
and going their own way,
especially if I see their aloneness alive in them.
Yet I don't want them to come near.
If they will only leave me alone
I can still have the illusion that there is room enough in the world.

- D. H. Lawrence

That's awesome. TY.

*stolen*

DIBS. New band name.