This could stem from or get worsened by a poor diet as well, for example one where a generally infrequent intake of food is dominated by quick carbohydrates. ;)

Not saying I have a great diet but what I eat at around midday/early afternoon is pretty much the same as what I eat in the evening. And also I'll often feel happier in the morning, before I've eaten anything, so I don't think it's down to diet all that much, although I might try improving it anyway.

I relate to a lot of what people have said here, and was a bit surprised by some of the "revelations".

I'm just another speck on the wall here, many have complained about how I feel towards myself.

I'm absurdly insecure, quite anxious, and in the end just absolutely pathetic.

I'm afraid of everything, but I suppose those mind numbing cliches that are failure, rejection and being perceived negatively would be the major, or more general ones.

Just as I'm typing this, I feel like a shallow, self-absorbed twat whose "issues" or "disorders" are merely a figment of his imagination; who just wants to feel special or smart and tricks himself into these stupid fucking attention grabbing character flaws.

I complain a lot about what Zagarbal mentioned, a general, incessant sleepyness, and then couple that with constant worry or anxiety.

I think too much about things I shouldn't give a flying toss about, and then I worry about thinking about these things because I'm trying to fit in or feel special, and then I worry that I'm a blithering idiot with absolutely no personality, who constantly seeks ways to avoid being vulgar.

What the fuck am I doing anyway? This is just another bloody way of seeking attention or comfort, and in the end, no comfort or attention will ever satisfy or genuinely comfort me.

I suppose I should just accept myself and try hard to overcome my fears, like tore did, and I must say I was immensely impressed. But in the end, who am I? I've no idea. How can I exist properly if I don't have anything to fall back on? Then again, I'm afraid of what I'll find out.

Teenager hell, I suppose; here I am sounding like a vulgar cliche from an insipid soap opera. Atleast I'm too lonely to complain about girlfriends...Oh wait, that's not really a plus.

(I cannot stress how much I loathe myself for writing this up right now, I wish my story was as interesting as some of the regular members')

Hey, everyone feels like that sometimes, and sometimes you just have to vent it. The internet is nearly the perfect place to do it. You shouldn't be so hard on yourself, you seem like a pretty smart guy from what I've read on this site. :)

Huh, I think we might be the same person... :)

No matter what the issues, whether it's grief (perhaps my main issue), stress, anxiety or just general teenage angst, it's still a problem. I know I'm a self pitying, whiney cow a lot of the time but I've also worked out that that's just the way I am. For now, anyway. I'm lucky I've got a partner that's really supportive and a good network of friends and family, but it doesn't change the way I feel sometimes. And maybe it never will. It's sad, but I've kind of resigned myself to the fact that things might not be so great for me, that we might not get another chance at having a family and that I may well lead a semi-miserable exsistence for the forseeable future. From what I can see, Tore is a lucky, strong person in that he is able to pull himself out of his problems (be it on his own or with help from friends and family), but some people just aren't designed like that. It's nothing to be ashamed of that you can't do this sh*t on you're own.

And Dr Phil moment over. There was my good advice of the day...

So i took this personality disorder test and, it would seem that there is a considerable amount wrong with me.

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

Ha nice thread!

One of my worst character traits is that I am an obsessive control freak - one of my best friends now hated my guts for about 3 years before we became friends. We used to be lab partners in science lessons, and I would never let her do anything in case she got it wrong or something... I was such a bitch to her!

I'm also ridiculously insecure about anything and everything, regardless of how irrelevant it may be :confused:

Thanks for the kind words.

Your depression or general lack of well being seems much more justified than mine, judging from your last post.

I'm glad you're surrounded by people who support you. I just fear that in my case that won't help at all. No one can help me, I've got to pull myself through, just like tore seems to have done.

And yes, we do seem to share some similarities (I dont know which smiley to use in this situation...).

Thanks for the Dr. Phil moment, heh.

Yeah, I'm like that, too. Most of the time it's no big deal, but there are times when it gets really bad and I just can't possibly function properly.

Nobody's reason for feeling like that is any more or less justified than the next person. Some people's brain just work in different ways to others. And tbh I've always suffered from depression, I was just unfortunate in having an event that made it worse, that's all.

Pulling yourself together is easier said than done no matter what the situation. As much as I have a lot of support, it's still quite a bit easier to talk to people out of the loop sometimes, so to speak. As mentioned, having a rant on the internet, no matter how self pitying you feel doing it, can be a good thing.