i dunno why i feel compelled to post this but a flaw of mine is askin for help on manly type of things

i think its cause i didnt have a good manly father figure in my father. so my mom remarried and my stepdad is ultra manly. loves sports, cars, home improvement, etc. i feel like i know so little about home improvement, like carpentry stuff or building cool stuff. and i feel dumb asking him questions cause hes such a hardass and my own insecurity about it and paranoia makes me think he thinks im stupid which probably isnt the case. so in turn i never ask the question and thus never improve.

this was brought up in my brain recently as i am trying to personally frame and mount several NBA jerseys and i am struggling doin so

I have borderline personality disorder and social anxiety disorder. I have better outward control of both of these things than I used to, but deep down I'm kind of a wreck.

I got a 39 on that autism test from a few years ago so there's that...


Right... I waver back and forth between being a level-headed, pragmatic, callous ******* and being an oversensitive, meek, self-loathing pushover. Makes for a lot of frustration, I'd be more at ease if I could just sit on one plane or the other and just work on it but nope, gotta do both simultaneously.

I get too wrapped up in my own world sometimes and forget about or have a hard time understanding others. It's pretty relieving when I remember though.


Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand there's the reckless and inappropriate behavior with alcohol.




There are worse things to deal with. Least I'm not schizophrenic or something.

schiZophrenia is largely sensationalised in people's minds. it's antisocial personality disorder that's the real **** storm

I can't honestly say I'm familiar with either, though schizophrenia probably runs in the family.

After googling, I can see your point.

theres a disorder for this and that and this and that and blah


dont get in a habit of labeling yourself. it only makes it 10X worse

Nope, it's a bad point. Schizophrenia varies depending on the type that the person is diagnosed with.

how is it a bad point when sociopathy is largely manipulating and harming people....

Schizophrenia can also cause people that have it to harm others with their auditory hallucinations.

but it's not a characteristic of the whole disorder so you're wrong about it being a bad point. you said yourself it varies so obviously you're wrong