that's very interesting, because i've been having similar experiences only with a bunch of different people and so far i haven't slept with any of them... part of me is worried that i'm "resisting the trip" (or the tao, or god, or whatever you want to call it) but another part of me is convinced that the only thing to fear is fear itself, that any bad situations that i find myself in i'm just putting myself through because i feel needlessly guilty.... but in any case, no you're not a nut, and i'm glad you brought yourself out of the bad trip
... you might still be over thinking it though. i definitely am.