Quote:
Maybe with a few snips
And some injections
Life will change
And I can become the person
I am inside
Maybe all it will take
Is some hormones, surgical knives,
And thread
And I'll be better off
Forever
I don't want to be vulnerable
I don't want to be "less then"
I don't want to fear things
That I could avoid otherwise
I don't want this flower
In a V shape between my legs
I don't want to need protection
I don't want to fear rape
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Tumor, I don't think your poem is "bad" at all. It actually expresses a feeling I relate to a lot (in the final stanza). Also, it makes complete sense to me that the person you are outside may not match who you feel you are inside.
I think that acknowledging the fears is part of figuring out how to handle them. Thread and external changes won't, I feel, get rid of the fears, only change them...because I think men have a whole bunch of fears, too. Even men can feel vulnerable.
I also thought it was interesting that you acknowledge fears in this poem when you seem very strong to me. Part of your strength, I feel, is that you admit what troubles you! You also seem like someone who can protect herself very well...though I know that doesn't change the feelings.