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savannah · 12-03-2009, 10:45 AM

i've been sittin on this for a week

over the holiday i spent alot of time with my old high school friends,....granted most of the time was spent on a dirt road,...or sittin in someone's barn,....but it was quality time none the less

shallow this may seem, but through our ipods i realized my home town friends havent progressed
they still do the exact same thing we did in high school, all while listenin to the exact same thing we did in high school, my music is still just as foreign to them as it was in high school, and the older i get the more problems i have relating to those in my past

i asked myself, as i sat there listenin to 2pac,...yes i swear it was the 2pac,.....what is wrong with these people

i couldnt sing along to any of them anymore,....and barely remembered all of 'my' part to getto cowboy (dont judge i was a 14 year old drunk),....

they didnt know anything i had, nor were they willin to explore it,.....we just all had to go back to the same ol same ol because i mean,...things that are different are scary,...everyone knows that,....

and that made me think about being an awkward kid,....i was very awkward until high school,...i listened to weird music,...i wore alot of flannel,....i read these things called books,....and was just all around weird,....my friends still like to remind me that i'm the weird one, even though i slowly let their back woods pop culture seep into my life,...

and lookin back, i'm glad that i learned enough of their bull**** that i had a really great time,....because i did,....outside of the class room i had a wonderful time in high school,....but i'm kinda sad too, i'm sad that i soaked up so much of them, and they soaked up nothing of me,.....

sadly, alot of my self identity is tied to those years,....and how i've progressed after them, but they are the base,.....and as i sat there i realized all of that,...this,....is ridiculous,...that i couldnt wait to get out of the county,.....and from now on i hope to run into my friends from time to time in town,....but i wont be callin anyone up to hang out when i got back home,.....i'm gonna go on about my business, and pray that drinkin the water there doesnt get me knocked up or married

12-03-2009, 10:45 AM	#19 (permalink)
savannah afrocentric Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: texas Posts: 753	i've been sittin on this for a week over the holiday i spent alot of time with my old high school friends,....granted most of the time was spent on a dirt road,...or sittin in someone's barn,....but it was quality time none the less shallow this may seem, but through our ipods i realized my home town friends havent progressed they still do the exact same thing we did in high school, all while listenin to the exact same thing we did in high school, my music is still just as foreign to them as it was in high school, and the older i get the more problems i have relating to those in my past i asked myself, as i sat there listenin to 2pac,...yes i swear it was the 2pac,.....what is wrong with these people i couldnt sing along to any of them anymore,....and barely remembered all of 'my' part to getto cowboy (dont judge i was a 14 year old drunk),.... they didnt know anything i had, nor were they willin to explore it,.....we just all had to go back to the same ol same ol because i mean,...things that are different are scary,...everyone knows that,.... and that made me think about being an awkward kid,....i was very awkward until high school,...i listened to weird music,...i wore alot of flannel,....i read these things called books,....and was just all around weird,....my friends still like to remind me that i'm the weird one, even though i slowly let their back woods pop culture seep into my life,... and lookin back, i'm glad that i learned enough of their bull**** that i had a really great time,....because i did,....outside of the class room i had a wonderful time in high school,....but i'm kinda sad too, i'm sad that i soaked up so much of them, and they soaked up nothing of me,..... sadly, alot of my self identity is tied to those years,....and how i've progressed after them, but they are the base,.....and as i sat there i realized all of that,...this,....is ridiculous,...that i couldnt wait to get out of the county,.....and from now on i hope to run into my friends from time to time in town,....but i wont be callin anyone up to hang out when i got back home,.....i'm gonna go on about my business, and pray that drinkin the water there doesnt get me knocked up or married __________________ i changed my mind; i changed my mind;now i'm feeling different all that time, wasted i wish i was a little more delicate i wish my i wish my i wish my i wish my i wish my name was clementine - sarah jaffe