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Originally Posted by jackhammer
The fun ended around 2001 I think! I get what you are saying but there is no apparent reason for partaking at all but you can only have so much fun with drinking I guess and the longer it goes on, the more it becomes a genuine habit and an easy way out of accepting who you are.
I have drunk since I was 15 and by that I mean a lot. I'm now 37 and still at it. Oddly enough it has never ever got in the way of day to day functioning and I very very rarely drink during the day but I think it's a personal triumph if I manage 2 nights in a row without drinking. I think it's classed as 'Alcohol Dependant' or some such crap by the 'ordinary folk'.
Is this an MB 'AA' meeting? I feel like I'm in confession! I do know WHY I drink though and it's not some deep seated personal hatred etc I just feel more confident and alive when I have had a few for some reason. MEH. In the morning I will cringe when I read this back!
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Nah man I know exactly how you feel. Although I've only been drinking since I was 18 and now it's only been 10 years, going on 11, I've found myself drinking every day just to be interested in the day. I would get home, and I'd have to drink just to feel excited about anything. It got to a point where I wouldn't be able to be very social with anyone unless I was drinking. If I hadn't had a few, I'd be totally uninterested.
Having some drinks made life interesting.
That's the end all of it. I know you know what I'm talking about.
And yea, I never had any of the classic "signs you're an alcoholic" like disrupting work, home, or neglecting responsibilities... but there's a definite need to rely on the effects of alcohol that can fly under the radar and lead you to a dependence you're not even aware of.
Heh... it's definitely starting to sound like AA, but it really is true. I made a pact with myself to stop drinking during the week, mostly because I want to get back to my healthy weight and I've started eating right again and exercising regularly, but I've noticed that after 2 weeks of only drinking Friday night and a little Saturday night, I'm feeling a lot better during the week, I'm more productive, I feel better mentally, and I look forward to my weekends a lot more.
It's a significant change for me, and it's one that I want to keep. It's hard to not grab a sixer sometimes on the way home from school, and I find myself trying to make excuses like "Well I aced all my mid-terms, so I should drink"... but the reward of not giving in has really proven to be more satisfying.
I dunno...
Everyone's situation is different, but I've found that when I don't drink to solve a problem, my drinking experience is always positive.
