Originally Posted by holdyoualways

yeah when i was a little kid i didnt pay any attention to my appearance or my intelligence. now those are the main things that bring me down. i dont know how my sister got the way she is. we used to be really close. i think ever since she started caring about her looks and the guys starting paying more attention to her, she just got a humungous ego and felt like she was the big cheese. shes one of those preppy white chicks who insult all the girls. and that definetely is not good for my self esteem. and seeing as how im a teenager with a screwed up brain every time i would get into fights with her i would get really stressed out and do/say things i regret later. everybody knows that she treats me like crap and they all feel sorry for me. i cant even pick out 5 good things about myself, thats how bad it is. it really sucks and i hate it. but, whatever, its a part of life i guess. every teenager goes through it at some time or another. you know, those raging hormones.