cardboard adolescent

i think that every living being experiences two drives, self-affirmation and self-destruction. i think both of these drives express themselves through everything we create, be it art, religion, economics, politics, etc. i don't think there's much hope of getting rid of either one.

on a more mystical level, i think the self-affirmative drive is a pull towards God, to become whole and embrace life and death, bliss and suffering. the self-destructive drive on the other hand denies bliss and focuses on suffering, and pulls us towards the abyss. i see the logic of christianity as an attempt to ignore the balance of good and evil, and essentially unbalance the universe towards self-affirmation, which i see as a metaphysical mistake that many other religions have managed to avoid. at the same time, though, by giving us a christ figure who basically embodies self-affirmation, Christianity gives us a very sound and stable moral template. however, with every christ comes an anti-christ... so it goes.