I had a few bad experiences while high. Well, once I was drunk and high and did something very stupid that I still regret. After that, smoking made me uncomfortable and yes - anxious. I stopped doing it because I did not like it anymore, it just made me feel terrible. Starting back up I was determined to seem "fine" while high - which made me very quiet, paranoid, but I was forcing myself to be alert and to be in control and to seem like I was fine (I wasn't normal or fine, I was high), and then one day I smoked and it was strong, and actually I was very happy but I started getting panic attacks, I thought I was going to die. But after that, smoking has made me just relaxed - still quiet, somewhat happy, but I always put a really big guard up. I always smoke with people I don't fully trust, it makes the experience terrible
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