My wife handed me a letter last year
The seal was broken, creases tainted
I slowly unfolded my demise, divorce
The first picture my mind has ever painted

The heaven white page read “Twenty year high school reunion”
A kiss fell from my lips onto my wife as I took the letter in
Held it tightly like a fallen cloud
Caressed a piece of starlight and put it in my pocket

Then I proceeded to complete the same daily routine
Eating dinner, quietly while watching television, children
Tucked them in and whispered goodnight
When you fell asleep curiosity crept to the study

It removed the blemishes and felt the texture of the cloud’s surface
Slick, thin, a prayer heard, the heavens in my hands
Probably the only gift I had ever really wanted
Hope returned and couldn’t be defined in those words on that page

Two months passed as I waited for the hour
Patience spent on time, life, contemplation
The family made the time twice as slow, patience ran out
Pressure shifted, trying to handle my spouse, my throbbing heart

It seemed like two eternities had passed
The day finally met me on the porch
We went to the old school auditorium together
It was nice to see how everyone glowed while talking, laughing

But all this time I was searching, tediously searching
In the dimly lit ocean of people
For your silky silhouette that my eyes missed so dearly
Wanting to recollect the feelings we had in those starry nights

My eyes caught a glimpse of your figure
And as you shook my hand we made contact again, finally
Star-struck souls reaching out for the same response in one another
I said something like “Wow, I can’t remember the last time.”

And as the night progressed we exchanged stories about our lives
Kids, partners, anything that had transpired in these eternities
In my eyes, were you searching for “I love you”- like before?
We talked about everything our lives had produced, everything except us

Later we departed for the bar with old friends
They all got smashed and complained about old age
But I’m not sure anyone in that bar felt as old as us right then
When we compressed fifteen books of love into one word

And when the night was over we had to say goodnight, goodbye
The kids were sleeping as my body snuck in the house
A strange woman greeted it with a kiss, but there was no passion
My mind was still outside, searching for you

Ever since then we haven’t spoken to one another
I’ve lost interest in everything, everything that doesn’t include you
But you are far away- living another life
Happily married with older things to do

And as this feeling of loss drinks itself out of me
Your silken silhouette becomes as clear as your eyes
With those come memories I can’t forget- memories of stars, clouds
Like when you teased me about being together forever

I pass out in the chair and the glass falls
The floor catches it and my wife comes to
Worried about me, like a good spouse should
-But all I can do is dream of you

Now, sitting behind you with these images running through my head
Staring at me like bright stars lost in space
When you turn back I stare into your eyes
You blush like the soft cloud I would hold forever

Even now, when it’s so far, I don’t want to lose my view
When you are close to me, right now, right here
I can never imagine being without you, because our hearts cast shadows
And my soul prays to anything that we will be together forever