I felt totally defeated today. It wasn’t even a bad day. I just suddenly got hit with this feeling that I don’t have it in me to do the things that need to be done. I’m beat.
Recently I’ve been feeling better too / just today I got an attack.
Considering all the cool **** I did when I was younger it’s sad and demoralizing what a loser I’ve become.
I don’t even know how many jobs I’ve failed to get since I quit teaching and getting this hernia it just makes the suckiest suck fest.
Sorry but goddamn
Maybe tomorrow will be a little better
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