Originally Posted by elphenor

the universe is absurd

but I intend on matching that absurdity

you guys were right, my ex slept with someone else while we were together and decided she loves him

ah but that guy doesn't love her, isn't that the joke

we are the same person, but because we are the same person

we both only want what we can never have

and we both want to be treated like garbage probably because of our childhoods

Originally Posted by elphenor

she told me a lot about her abusive ex, and everything I did was to show her that she was worth more than that

I called her at 1:30am I couldn't help myself that morning/night and she called back but I missed the call, why would she call me back?

so I call her today and she's blocked me, so I call her from my work's phones and she hangs up on me

but this does it, she tells me what's up, after a ****ing year she tells me what it is

and she tells me she just doesn't want to talk to me anymore, that I "ruined everything"

I messed up her chance with the guy she really wanted I suppose

Originally Posted by elphenor

anyway back to matching all this

I can not possibly cope, I drunk as **** right now so drunk

but when I go to see Legendary Pink Dots, I'm not coming back

I will let all my classes drop me, and I will live in my car in Austin

really I want to go RIGHT NOW but one of my roomates is up, and I don't want them to know what's up

I'm also totally aware my screws are loose, I am not sane, this is not something to take as hard as I am, but agian the not sane part

Originally Posted by elphenor

none of it is resentment

I believe all is fair in love, I believe that strongly

but i was not given the ability to cope to any degree

Originally Posted by elphenor

there are nowords for the paiin mim in fawrown a

Originally Posted by elphenor

I have a adsf connetct for a bunch of acid too Ithogut about that optino

just competley oblicterat myasef

Originally Posted by elphenor

I'm on my way to steal rom the steaore i work at

I stoel asll yhes e[ep[;e ,ajil

tonight I do anytyhihg im vafraid of f

Originally Posted by elphenor

FLARLY put I steal

I take form my employebnt

they hteink they own me, I'm going to steal

lucky6 I don't burn the building to the ground @@@@@@@@@@@@########3

Originally Posted by elphenor

I took the hwoiek nehnptjpppd mail

i 5belongs to me now

I own the mail

Originally Posted by elphenor

im broken thank you though

something snapped

I just stole a bunch of halloween decorations from other people's lawns

and all their mail

I have to get away

Originally Posted by elphenor

Marie help me

i hurt so much

I can't cope everythin ghurts I', cry9ing

Originally Posted by elphenor

I want my copy 9f daracula and I want my boog san shoes

and I ant my guitar and a p

everyting esle can stay

Originally Posted by elphenor

well and my alpatop of c

Originally Posted by elphenor

I hope you'll talk to me ut I' goin to asuting marie