Originally Posted by Kiiii

Been a while. I think it's time for an update.

Here's the thing: the year started off great, and don't get me wrong, I'm still content with how things are. However over the last month, I've fallen back into bad habits of feeling sorry for myself and obviously depreasion. I can't sleep at night without somethi NH waking me up. And the way I combat that is with weed. I've been pretty much stoned every day for a few weeks. I went to work yesterday not stoned, and it was the worst day of my life.

Thoughts arose like me feeling guilty again about my ex and other obvious ventures. However even though being stoned helps, that depression has made its way inot stonerrville. No I'm not coming here to complain. I've been trying to do a lot less of that. However this is one of the reasons my time at this forum hs been non frequent. I use it as a crutch to let out my anger and aggression. I can't do that. It's not the right way to handle it.

This mixed with not feeling like I'm doing good enough at work, it really pus you into a spot of vulnmerability. And such, I've been spending every free minute I have, in bed. I work. I get in bed. Done.

It's sad. But don't worry. I'm not dead.