Reflecting on yesterday: I had a few mental breakdowns that even I couldn't have foreseen. I'm not entirely sure what prompted it to happen since I went out with my younger bro and my mom to get sushi. Suddenly I found myself spilling everything out on the table without the fear of being judged (though deep down I felt judged). The issue that comes to mind out of all of this is the fact that my mom loves to cut people off when they talk. It's partly why I don't really talk to her much about my personal issues because she already knows what she's going to say before I say anything. The thing that became a common conclusion out of all of this was...
Therapy.
I've decided it may be a good idea for me to do this. People in this thread have been telling me about it, but now close family members are saying it as well. maybe it's time I bite the bullet and give it a shot.
When January 1st comes around. I'm going to be working with my parents whom I live with now, and make a 6 month plan and a 1 year plan. If I have something to work toward, I feel I can really get out of this funk I'm in. I want to enjoy this month and the holidays and everything going on, and I feel it's best for me to look forward to something instead of reliving the past. I don't want to be 35 years old, look back at this journal, and find that I've done nothing to fix myself.
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