Originally Posted by Sequoioideae

I have the overwhelming urge to destroy all of my records, recordings, and instruments because I'm fucking 24, still live at home, and see my other peers follow their dreams while I'm still here doing fuck all. I'll never be a musician in a circle that I helped create because I can't even get out of bed except to go to work, let alone create anything anymore.

I'm so pissed and angry that I spent 6 years doing nothing while everyone has already established themselves as musicians and artists. I'm going to end up like those dudes at grocery stores that spend all of their money on crack and pills while I slowly waste away. If I wasn't such a coward, I would have killed myself by now. I wish my cancer came back and invaded my lungs so I wouldn't have to worry about having to die anymore.