Entry 1
It's cloudy, it's cold, and I have the worst fever I've had in a long time. I should be at school right now, instead I'm laying on my couch listening to music and eating french onion soup. But above all else I want to write, and record, I mean all I have is a four track recorder, but my ambitions are still fairly big with it. Alas I don't really have the energy for it, so instead what am I doing I'm revising a map of what Im sure will end up being the longest song on Empty House (Scruff). Getting everything down has turned out to be really tough, apparently I have more ideas than I really need, and I'm still debating on weather it's going to be noisy yet lush, or a bit more free-form sounding. As of now I seem to be gravitating more towards and orchestrated mess over, well I guess a more natural mess. That brings me to a crossroads in myself seeing as I am a person who loves to do improv and a person who loves improvisational or free-form music, yet when it comes to my own music I become very calculated. It's a dilemma for sure and one that's keeping me from recording my album because I want it to sound good, and I don't mean a high fidelity good, it's going to be lo-fi, but there is really nothing I can do about that, but I want it sound well put together, I want to impressed when I hear it. That's what is so difficult for me, I want things to sound perfect, so when anything is off by just a little I get frustrated, and end up blaming myself. So I'm sitting here wondering where must I stop with adding elements to the album, yet still have it sound good... It's a question I constantly ask myself and as of now no idea.
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