Neapolitan

to all,

I have a promise to keep.

There were a few times where I felt light I was hanging on a thread to whether I should continue to be a participating member just by a single friendship. After a few friends I had left MusicBanter last year I was seriously thinking of packing it in and leaving myself. Until I met Paul and I thought he seems like a interesting enough person to talk to about music, well I might stick around after all. I thought if he ever decided to leave, I would too, because back then there wasn't much in way of discussion I was interested in and the fact some of members I knew and liked where leaving then. I thought that then, before I became acquainted with other members I considered to be friends... so now the decision is even harder to make.

So there is always this fork in the road with me whether or not I should continue to use MusicBanter. Personally some of that has to do is should I spend more time practicing than reading other people's opinions on music, and wasting time on the internet. But also there is the problem of trolling and just how it gets handle and the other people who whether or not are see as trolling just air out all their emotional issues which makes me feel less and less wanting to be a part of this place. Instead of airing out what bothers me, which I would feel only open me up to what buttons people can push I would just stop contributing. I am down to contributing next to nothing. So even if I make the decision to leave it wouldn't mean much of anything. It only proves that the best revenge is to make yourself indispensable, which I haven't. I often felt maybe I should put horse-blinders on and ignore all the immature stuff that happens, and just contribute about music, but I didn't so... I just want to add that I do not feel like leaving because of trolling got the best of me. And I feel it would be ridiculous to say to make threats of leaving, because in reality I probably left a long time ago.

So now I see Paul and Steph are out... as a friend I am not going to judge whether or not it's the best possible way to handle the situation. I would do what I would do in real life and lend my support to my friends whether other people think it is wise to do so or not. I am out as long as Paul and Steph are out. So now I have a promise to keep...

Neapolitan
☮ ♥ ♫ ∞ (peace, love and music forever)

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