Wicked, thanks for the words guys. I had to start somewhere so I guess it's not a bad start, Cheers
That bit, Raid the thought cabinet, was supposed to be saying think for yourself, and then theres the ecstacy guy who does whatever it takes to make you feel miserable. Think of it as being stuck in a pit(depression) and your trying to climb out(thinking for yourself) and then theres someone at the top who shoves you back down(the corrections guy).
Ever seen the Lion King, when Scar lets Mufasa die after his efforts to escape death? Kinda like that. But no matter what, it is still too confusing, I agree.