So I haven't posted in a while, but a recent catalyst in my life has almost forced me to have an outlet for expressing myself better, and being more honest so here I am. Since I've finally begun listening to music again instead of the same thing over and over, I guess it's time to share what I was listen to in those periods:
Today's lesson: Britpop & Happiness
I have a majour hard on for British things in general, their culture has always fascinated me for some reason, especially in finding something to relate to growing up. I live in a small town and have hardly any connection with locals, so music, books, writing have always been my escape. This week I'm really feeling these.
I'm sure everyone is familiar with this one, but it's always been of my favourite Stone Roses songs in general. It's so beautiful and creepy and enigmatic. The Stone Roses are a band I often forget about though, when my life gets all flip turned upside down (
) I have to listen to things that complement my mood, much like a crazy person takes pills. I Wanna Be Adored is perfectly mirroring me lately, I've grown up thinking that I didn't have to be "normal" like everyone else, I was already born a weirdo. And that was totally okay, I mean, I didn't have to "sell my soul" to become something I wasn't and if someone else was writing and playing it in a popular song, I must not be so alone in the world.
Bye Bye Badman has been stuck with me for years, I've always considered it a break up song (it isn't) but again I interpret things as personal because that truly is the purpose of any artistic endeavour. To me it reflects my struggles with f
uckboys that I constantly go through and again, the aformentioned weirdness that I always think scares them away. So I throw stones at them, hoping to make them bleed, all I want is my revenge, my pound of flesh so to speak. But I'm getting better.
Which brings me to:
My personal favourite, Waterfall. Whenever I've been down and needed to be bring myself back up, I listen to Waterfall. It reminds me of how many awful things I've been through I have the strength within me to figure them out, no matter what. "She'll carry on through it all, she's a waterfall". Plus it's just a pretty song. It just reflects to me that I don't need to do stupid **** to pick myself up, but the next song teaches me to forgive myself for the things I've done and makes me better understand myself:
After all my hard work, I've finally found what I've been waiting for in life and finished the puzzle, for now. This is everything I've been waiting for, and I'm finally ready to move on to bigger and better things, what with my big move to San Fran coming up and everything.
Until next time