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Old 02-28-2013, 10:12 PM   #15 (permalink)
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Yes, and I still do. I've attempted suicide several times and I have lived in a constant state of suicidal fantasy and ideation since my first attempt when I was 12. It's a large part of who I am. My most recent breakdown/attempt was this past October, and it ended very dramatically but positively. I'm in therapy now and it's something I work on healing from every day.
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Why did the feelings go away
Interestingly, although I've always been a little depressed, I never thought that life was just totally useless until I was older. When I was suicidal, I was very lonely and directionless.
The feelings went away because I became less depressed for some reason. No specific reason, just a "time heals all wounds" kind of thing. More specifically, I think I had to become used to the fact that I had nobody to depend on and no safety net. That became liberating eventually and once I accepted it, the suicidal thoughts stopped.
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