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Blarobbarg · 12-02-2012, 12:01 PM

Everything I Do Is Opposite Of Myself

I can't stand stereotypes. I have railed against them my entire life. Every time someone talks about the stereotype of anything, I usually attack them with an example I know of where the opposite is true. This is probably because I just care about people in general and hate hate, but it also comes from my own life. Anyone who only knows me in certain scenarios or environments probably shoehorns me into a stereotype- the nerd, the Christian, the wacky one, the hippie. Usually when I realize that an acquaintance thinks of me in only one way, I try to switch their opinion around in another direction... for ****s and giggles, mostly. But is there a deeper reason? The short answer is yes. The long answer is below.

I've thought pretty hard for the last few weeks and I've come to the conclusion that everything I do is to be different. I didn't even realize it, but I have been incredibly prideful of my differentness. For years, I've always been the "odd" one, whether for better or for worse.

For instance, I'm a Christian. I swear. Not a big deal, but after considering it, I'm pretty sure the only reason is because I can't stand Christians who get upset over pointless nonsense when there are millions of people starving to death around the world. I'm not swearing even to express annoyance, I'm doing it to not be a douche bag. If that makes any sense.

In my everyday life, I'm a very fun-loving guy. I have a silly personality, I'm very sarcastic, I like to play and joke and all that, but I will also randomly switch to super-serious mode and discuss politics, comparative religion, and world events with people who don't even realize I know or care about any of it. I also have the tendency to psychologically dissect someone, to see if my theories are anywhere close to the truth. Typically if they suddenly get really uncomfortable I'm in the ballpark, at least.

I seriously am beginning to think that the only reason I'm known as the "really silly, weird smart guy" to my closer friends is because I was tired of only being serious and just started acting funny so I could actually have friends.

One only has to listen to my favorite music to see that I enjoy opposites. I might listen to 70's punk nonstop for a few hours, then get bored and jump to whatever is the total opposite... in this case, noisy modern jazz music. Now, knowing what I do about my actual life and personality, am I doing this because I am legitimately enjoying it, or am I doing it because subconsciously, I just want to be different, and opposite of myself? Will I suddenly decide one day that half of what I listen to is garbage, because I was just listening to it as a front for my actual personality?

I dunno. It's probably all bull****. I'm just overthinking out loud here (or overthinking with my fingers moving, I suppose).

12-02-2012, 12:01 PM	#17 (permalink)
Blarobbarg Do good. Join Date: Feb 2011 Location: Minneapolis, Minnesota Posts: 2,065	Everything I Do Is Opposite Of Myself I can't stand stereotypes. I have railed against them my entire life. Every time someone talks about the stereotype of anything, I usually attack them with an example I know of where the opposite is true. This is probably because I just care about people in general and hate hate, but it also comes from my own life. Anyone who only knows me in certain scenarios or environments probably shoehorns me into a stereotype- the nerd, the Christian, the wacky one, the hippie. Usually when I realize that an acquaintance thinks of me in only one way, I try to switch their opinion around in another direction... for ***s and giggles, mostly. But is there a deeper reason? The short answer is yes. The long answer is below. I've thought pretty hard for the last few weeks and I've come to the conclusion that everything I do is to be different.* I didn't even realize it, but I have been incredibly prideful of my differentness. For years, I've always been the "odd" one, whether for better or for worse. For instance, I'm a Christian. I swear. Not a big deal, but after considering it, I'm pretty sure the only reason is because I can't stand Christians who get upset over pointless nonsense when there are millions of people starving to death around the world. I'm not swearing even to express annoyance, I'm doing it to not be a douche bag. If that makes any sense. In my everyday life, I'm a very fun-loving guy. I have a silly personality, I'm very sarcastic, I like to play and joke and all that, but I will also randomly switch to super-serious mode and discuss politics, comparative religion, and world events with people who don't even realize I know or care about any of it. I also have the tendency to psychologically dissect someone, to see if my theories are anywhere close to the truth. Typically if they suddenly get really uncomfortable I'm in the ballpark, at least. I seriously am beginning to think that the only reason I'm known as the "really silly, weird smart guy" to my closer friends is because I was tired of only being serious and just started acting funny so I could actually have friends. One only has to listen to my favorite music to see that I enjoy opposites. I might listen to 70's punk nonstop for a few hours, then get bored and jump to whatever is the total opposite... in this case, noisy modern jazz music. Now, knowing what I do about my actual life and personality, am I doing this because I am legitimately enjoying it, or am I doing it because subconsciously, I just want to be different, and opposite of myself? Will I suddenly decide one day that half of what I listen to is garbage, because I was just listening to it as a front for my actual personality? I dunno. It's probably all bull***. I'm just overthinking out loud here (or overthinking with my fingers moving, I suppose). __________________ https://rateyourmusic.com/~Blarobbarg ｡･::･ﾟ★,｡･::･ﾟ☆　^my RYM^　｡･::･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆ (◠‿◠✿)