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Originally Posted by Unknown Soldier
How do you know I haven't got problems at the moment!!! Just because I don't air them in public doesn't mean I don't have them.
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Well they can't be bothering you too much if you can still get a kick out of other peoples problems.
A/w I've just seen Derek in his car as I was coming back to the house. He actually smiled at me!!! I told him I didn't want him knocking on my door or trying to talk to me anymore. He said 'alright. I've just said I'm sorry haven't I?' To which I said 'Do you realise what you did?' and then he said 'you scare me!' I said 'What the **** you on about? I've never even thought about doing anything to you!!!' and he said 'It's a ****hole...your used to these places I'm not.' The mind boggles! Everytime any talk of anything to do with having to fight or defend yourself crops up I've made a point of playing it down and said things like 'It's not the South Central L.A!' esp. since it dawned on me that he's basically got some kinda paranoid obssesion with having to fight people. For e.g people playig the music loud. IN his mind all he think about it is that ulimtately it boils down to if someone thinks they're harder than him then if their musics loud and he goes and asks them to turn it down then they'll tell him to **** off because their not scared of him so he's scared of having to go and tell people to turn their music down in case they tell him to **** off which makes him feel he has to think about it boiling down to violence and that's all at the forefront of his mind which is why he keeps going on about being a 'big lad.' I mean the guy upstaris who does play his musc loud every now and again is actually quite big himself but the other day Derek actually said 'I'm bigger than him'. If he is then it's by about 2mm yet he's actually factored that into his thinking. Also the day after the 5'2 prostitute was punching me in the face on Sunday night he said 'If she did that to me I'd have ****in' thrown her down the stairs'!! and as he was at the stairhead next to my door he actually acted it out! So he's so scared of being seen as a weakling that he has to mouth off about defending himself against a 5'2 woman who's got a punch about as hard as being hit in the face with a pillow!!!!