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Originally Posted by duga
Ok... This all sounds very similar to how I went through my teenage years (and to a large extent I still go through these things), so I'll throw my 2 cents in.
Above all, just know you are over analyzing things. The fact that you wrote all that and felt better proves this. I bet half an hour later you felt like crap again. This is because for a while, you worked things out in your head in a tangible manner and your logic-loving mind appreciated it. Then your surroundings changed (as in you may have gotten off the net) and your brain had new things to deal with yet again... Hello anxiety. Judging from the lucidity of your post, I'm willing to bet you are a pretty smart and self aware guy. This is good and bad. It means you will be able to appreciate the beauty in the world but you will also feel the bad side of life a lot harder than many people. This is just something you will have to learn to deal with in your own way. I'd tell you how, but I'm still learning myself. Even my appreciation of my own interest in life and figuring these things out has become jaded, so I'm pretty confident this is something I will have to deal with my whole life.
All in all, this is why I am here. I love music. It helps more than anything else. I feel my head running 1000 miles an hour and I know it's time to get lost in an album. I'm sure you already knew this trick, though. Outside of that... Instead of just being honest with people try to relate to them. See where they are coming from in life. The biggest comfort I find in others is realizing everyone has problems and REALLY being able to see how that is.
Anyway... I hope this helps a little.
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That is a really good point. That is what really made me feel better about my anxiety at the start, was I started realizing that everyone experienced it in some degree and then my motives really became quite jaded after the massive security I experienced. To some extent I was discussing problems with people not to gain perspective but just to make myself feel as though I was better than others because I had the ability to get people to open up back to me.
Which is totally the opposite to what I was doing in the first place. I guess I just gotta listen to my heart. Listening to my heart was what lead me to try being straight up with people and be happy. But I have to work on accepting that what it means to follow my heart isn't going to be the same all the time, it is so counter intuitive to my logic loving brain (as you very accurately described it) to accept that.
There is a reason I guess why it is so effortless to have conversations with people when you are following your heart because it has an essence of truth and the truth is always incredibly interesting. I want that kind of effortlessness to be more prominent in my life.
Music does wonders for me but just like my tendency to over do things I enjoy I often do it with music as well. Moderation is something I struggle with. When something makes me happy I get to attached. Interestingly enough I have never had an experience where a person has ever made me super attached. That's usually like the first thing people think of when they think of desperation.
Duga is there any life experiences that you had that helped you mature some what out of this kind of over analytical obsessive thinking?