I've mentioned before that I'm unsatisfied with mine, and lately that dissatisfaction has become even greater. The main reason is that I've moved over to another circle of friends, most of whom are girls. I've always been able to identify with women more than other men, but those godforsaken gender barriers make sure that isn't returned. They do a lot of stuff together that just wouldn't be socially acceptable for a man to do, and I hate that because it means I'll never truly be able to connect to them thanks to the stupid ****ing coin flip that landed on tails for my birth.
As for why I would rather be female in the first place? It's not something that I've figured out truly, and I think I've mentioned that before. On the exterior I show very little in the way of feminine qualities, but at the same time I sjow just as little masculinity. My curse is that I've managed to set up the expectations of those around me to be almost completely different to the person I truly am, so nobody would ever be able to spot any kind of supressed feminism in me, and nobody would be able to take me seriously if I did suddenly try and be womanly, which is why I know deep down that I'll never go trans as much as I'd like to. As well as that I'm physically just an unattractive, poorly shaped bloke. Not that I'd care how attractive I would end up if I did suddenly have a genie fall down and give me the chance to suddenly become female, but my point is that even if I took the extreme step and got a full-on sex change I'd still look like a bloke.
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