Bloozcrooz

I appreciate all of your comments and thoughts and im not offended with someone viewing my situation as having a problem. I know I have a problem the only issue is taking the steps to fix it. Or continuing to laugh it off as a joke and continuing down a self destructive path. Nobody finds it funny anymore and if I dont change it I know im going to alienate everything else in my life that i love or care about. I dont want to elaborate to much cause I dont want to sound as if im having a pity party...im just realizing that it may be time for change while I can still salvage some of my relationships with loved ones and friends.
To answer your question though Sk the main reason I drink is so as not to feel. Stay as busy as possible..like working all day then coming home and getting trashed. It leaves little time to think about or deal with reality. Problem being it creates even more at the same time. If I get home around 6 in the evening by 10 or 10:30 ive drank 15 or so beers. Get up at 5 in the morning go to work get off then do it all again. Then if I have nothing to do on the weekend I just get flat trashed all day till I pass out.
Again thank you all for your thoughts or concern.

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