I'm not going to reply to everything that's been said here. That's not going to end well as there's some things that I cannot respond to in a 'normal' way.
Fact is, I've been living with this autism for almost 27 years now and I've been trying to make the best out of life. This cost me a lot of time, and a lot of energy and I cannot deny that it was definitely worth it as I have become something that most autists really aren't, which is social. The severity of my autism is masked because I just wanted it that way. I want to function as normal as possible. Bottomline; I do the absolute maximum of what I can do, being me.
And there's no way, no way, I can see any good or anything remotely defendable in people telling me there's nothing wrong with me and that I'm a lazy **** trying to abuse the system by getting a disability benefit.
Yes I'll always get criticized for what I say on a forum. Allright. That's cool.
But the things that are said here are practically my life smashed to the ground.
It's not like I never heard it before, but usually it comes from people who are older than 70, have worked hard for their whole life and just don't know any better because they just aren't an my smarter. In this case it comes from young people which I think have a reasonable level of intelligence. I just thought they'd be more thoughtful.
There's one more thing: Should I be punished like this for being open towards you guys? There's a few (regularly posting) people who are in a similar situation I am in. They don't tell it here because they're afraid of the reactions they might get. I now see why. I may have misjudged that.
I got a ****load of PM's which I really think is really very sweet. Most of them saying that they haven't got a clue what Freebase is on about. I wish some people would say that to him so he might realise that in this case he's the one whose logic is quite odd.
And I just wonder... Why, Freebase, did you feel the urge to say such awful things? I also got PM's of people who say you actually like me. Why would you want to say this? It's not like you thought it wouldn't hurt me, is it?
Eitherway, Freebase; You really went too far here and there's no way we're going to repair this anytime soon. For now, let's agree to disagree.
Mods, please add; To me people on the internet aren't strangers, they're people too. And they make the same ****ing mistakes the people in real life do. Only in real life I can avoid a certain person, on a forum it's sort of impossible to avoid a single person.
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