Told my only friend who I've known for 25. Yrs.I hated him this morning. He did something a few yrs ago that is the thing I hate most but he was the only irl friend I had so I've basically just been using him for past 2 yrs cause I didn't want to have no one to text n talk to n that was before I moved in to a bedsit in town where I don't even have my parents to talk too. Bit sad state of affairs but his Schadenfreude was unforgivable.
Here's the text convo for anyone who's interested.
Me: Btw I got outta dat 3 contract...so y can stop smiling about it now. I'm still not quite sure y u found it somert t smile about in the first place
Paul: What u goin on about, i never 'smiled' about owt.
Me: Course y dint...n y dint go bitchin on to les about mi either did yer?
Me: Anyway I hate yer ****in guts now n wish id never got bak in touch. Don't think I don't know y only talk t mi cause of yer batty obsession wi mi goldigging poncey **** brother. Stop ****un texting mi. Wish I cud ****in block yer. There I've said it. Bin wanting t say it a while. Time for mi t get a bettter friend.
Paul: NO, I DIDNT!! Go bitchin to les about u. Would appear that its "have a pop at paul day', well gee orr.
Me: No.its stop using Paul coz he's the o.ly 'friend' uve gotday. I really Dont like u y know. Avnt done for a while but was too scared of being totally friendless to tell you to get fuked. Ive got Cheryl t talk to now so um telling you to gwt ****ed. You n yer fascinating texts about bus reg. No.s ha ha ha.
Paul: What an evil, horrid, thoughtless, nasty, vile thing to say. 1, cant stand ya EVIL **** of a brother, after all those yrs of upset he caused me. U arnt an angel either, ****tin in sarnies, far frm what a friend shud do. If thats really what type of person u 'think' i am, then fine, u r sooo very wrong.
Paul: I dont believe u can be so horrid, cant help but think av woke up back in the 80s, when u and that **** OF A BRUVAH of yours nd J n SI, BULLIED N Picked on me just to have a laugh. My God, i truely thought u were a real friend, well, ya obviously as bad as u were in the 80s. I cannot believe what motive u have had over the last 3-4 yrs. I am amazed that u r being like this.
Paul: Well, what can i say, it wont be the last time i get used in life. U really have shocked me. Enjoy ya life.
Paul: U appear to flatter ya sen, thinking that i constantly talk about u all the time, well, no, i dont. Its good to get new friends in life, sometimes its good to leave the past behind. I wont bother you anymore.
Me: Good. That means Uve pissed mi off for the last time
Paul: At least u have got to bollox to tell me how it really is. That 1 good thing. You were the last person i thought that would use me. Live and learn tho.
Me: Look. I wasn't using u per se...u just pissed mi off so I dint really wanna b friends anymore...that was 2 yrs ago I've not bin able to just shrug it off. Y shunt get a kick outta yer 'friends' problems...y must think yer nice all the ****in time or somert n guess ****in what?..yer not!. A/w that's that. I'm not going to reply anymore. if u wanna stay friends wi people u shud learn not t av Schadenfreude.. Google it.
Me: N Ure obviously still bearing grudges from 20 yrs ago so wtf were u even trying t b friends wi me for? Eh?
Paul: Never thought i was perfect. U have made it crystal clear, friends are just things in my life i DONT WANT OR NEED. I am thick, and ****ing stupid,
Paul: I dont forget when somebody duz that type of thing, just to get a cheap laugh at my expence.
Me: So y the **** did y even bother t reply t mi on friends reunited then?
Paul: Because i wanted to be ya friend, just cos u did the '****ty thing', dunt mean we had to be enemies for eternity. It was a vile thing to do, we all do daft things in life. Av other friends who have done worserer things to me, i still talk to em. U appear to get off on using me cos u didnt av any or many friends, summat not to be proud of. Tis an extremely hurtful and horrid thing to do, and something i thought u would NEVER DO.
__________________
Proper music for proper people!!!
|